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am i hurting him by telling him the truth?is it wrong being straightforward?i feel so bad.he's avoiding me after i told him everything.i don't wan to lose him.he's so special but yet i hurt him.i don't think i deserve anyone to love.cause everytime i love someone i lost them by telling them the truth.this time i don't want it to happen,but it did.argh.im so f@#%ed up.i hate it when comes to this stage.whatever it is i have to face it on my own.but what should i do?well,it happen because of my stupid ex,ELIAS.what is the point of continuing a relationship when the other party don't want?it's pointless.but he keep on insisting.but i felt nothing is the same.everything change and now he wants me back but the problem is i don't want him back.i love being with EIREEL.he makes me different and he respect me alot.he can make me smile without looking at me.that's what i like bout him and now i think everything change because of me.why?what am i suppose to do?should i back off?should i avoid everyone?what?!